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song lyrics This Grudge lyrics Fourteen years Thirty minutes Fifteen seconds I ve Held this grudge Eleven songs Four full journals Thoughts of punishment I ve expended Not in contact Not a letter Such communication Telepathic You ve been vilified Used as fodder You deserve a piece Of every record But who s it hurting now? Who s the one that s stuck? Who s it torturing now With an antique knot in her stomach? I want to be big and let go Of this grudge that s grown old All this time I ve not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us Like an abandoned house Dusty covered Furniture Still intact If I visit it now Will I simply re-live it Somehow gratuitous But who s still aching now? Who s tired of her own voice? Who is it weighing down With no gift from time of said healing I want to be big and let go Of this grudge that s grown old All this time I ve not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us Maybe as I cut the cord Veils will lift from my eyes Maybe as I lay this to rest Dead weight off my shoulders will rise Here I sit Much determined Ever ill-equipped To draw this curtain How this has entertained Validated And has served me well Ever the victim But who s done whining now? Who s ready to put down This load I ve carried longer than I had cared to remember I want to be big and let go Of this grudge that s grown old For the life of me I ve not known How to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved Clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us. song lyrics